this is a fuck-you bullet.
fuck you.'how can you teach her something like that ( Read more... )

once you experience elation, nothing else compares.
you will never settle for anything less.

even sex loses meaning;
there is no drug of choice;
drunken state is not enough;

you're holding hands with God.

cause everything feels so fleeting.

it's coming around again.
maybe i can never escape this.

everything in me is realigning itself around you.

and though i see you're broken too,
maybe our halves will make a perfect circle.

or maybe we're the same piece
and the jigsaw puzzle will never be complete.

cause i just achingly painfully regretfully unabashedly miss you.
and it has consumed every part of me.

i do not lie.

you stole my last sleeping pill.

you don't want me living
my own life
and you won't let me sleep.

how could you possibly think
this is good for me

when i can't even have control
over my own sanity.

i just want to sleep at night.

is that too much to ask?

give it back!

after 12 long hours ( Read more... )

it cultivates in me like clear water. it grows and embeds under my flesh, roots of a manna prayer. it banishes the decay and a cig is not strong enough to remember ( Read more... )

i wish malaysia was colder. then i can layer my clothes and have an excuse to look fat.

and on some days, i can feel all the pain in the world.