aih aih aih..

i'm torn. i'm torn. i'm torn.
someone please help me sort my brain out?

i look back on photos and i realise how the smiles aren't the same anymore. each upturn holds so much constraint. it's not fun anymore. it's not funny ( Read more... )

well. the internets has managed to chew me up and left me in a blaze of mtv coloured lights and fiestas. there're so many patterns and images pumping through my bloodtracks - but i'm stuck. stuck in a manifesto of black and white that ache ache aches to bleed into rainbow bursts of glorious nebula explosions ( Read more... )

for years i've been trying to express this cultivation of thoughts that have proceeded to confound their existance in my nubile sensitivities. these words that cannot manifest themselves amongst the articulate or steadfast-worthy. the contributions to my erratic behaviour and repetitive mannerisms ( Read more... )

i really need this holiday to start soon.
i need the distance, i need the space.
i need to get out of here and quite possibly hibernate
for the next thousand years.
just until i get this rot out of my system.
this rot that i had let poison me for far too fucking long.

it's only easier to deal with it in nightmares and dreamscapes.
i was so scared to actually see and recognise its face again.

i could still feel its anger in multitudes.

the same helplessness pinning my wrists as i was dragged across the floor.
the same pain. the same fear.

the body remembers what is impossible for the mind to.

i try not to think about you,
but you still manage to make your way
into my dreams.

you make me weak
and indestructible
both at the same time.

it's easy being this
the substitute.
it's true for those who can
only love their loneliness.

a democracy that you were too chickenshit to vote on apparently ( Read more... )

i call your bullshit ( Read more... )

spiderman once said,
"with great power comes great responsibility."