i hate my life

last night I quit the frat and got a dui for it. I am very disheartened by the fact that the right choices always become the wrong ones.

the picture isnt me but somehow it fits i think. My life as a struggle to hold down the realities and responsibilities that i have created as the poisons of my surroundings work to purge the only goodness left in my body. Or maybe I drink too much, simply.

"Don't you know writers ever talk about is their troubles ( Read more... )

This pen doth miss these pages for long is the time since my thoughts did pierce these pages ( Read more... )

Walking up to my house I began to think. Stuck there with the preponderence of a notion of utter dispair. Left without the ability to aspire to a greatness only dreampt about in the purest of hopes lost. Again, I walked, with the light of the dying sun behind me ( Read more... )

Sitting, staring, my thoughts take off. Soaring above the real, searching for a vision abstract. Some enigmatic truth, so far lost in the shadows of my vanquished heart. The waiter came to my table ( Read more... )

I walked along the sea today. The warmth of the sun gripped me as the cool tide surged upon my toes. The dicotomy of feeling split my emotions as a overwhelming feeling of selflessness and overberaing importance simeutaneously broke over me ( Read more... )

Must now give thoughts
of strength, tenderness, and fears
tgat now are left behind
for us in the wake
of our moments fleeting.

Now fear resides in me
The tender moments of our human hearts are
written in the forms
for us to forever hold
and for me to forever find
strength
and cherish.

One instance. One decision. One pleasure. In that one fleeting moment. You. Threw away. All that was beautiful in you. me. my life. your life. And in all that I dreamed. Love. Could be. FOr one indulgence. We now coexist in suffering. FOr your lack of love...