the
FUCKING
most
FRUSTRATING
feeling
in
the
world
is not knowing what to say
not being able to find the words you want
hoping to make it all better
but knowing that you dont have the answer
and cant help someone
who you love
and trying to
so hard
while making an attempt
to save yourself

the ink beneath my skin

as i watched the birds fly ( Read more... )

is it weird that i've been craving human contact lately ( Read more... )

well that was a good time.

my grace came up.

it was brilliant. we just hung out w/ her and went shopping and ate and talked about everything.
i really really love her, she is one of the most kind and amazing people i know.

anyways, i really really enj-oi-ed it.

plus i got some things.

went shopping w/ blake and whitney today.

i like lo-key

oo i forgot to mention that i watched one tree hill last nigth and gavin degraw was on it and he is glorious.
truly glorious.

do i exaggerate sometimes? because i really dont like to.

i need to fix my journal, it looks like shit. i've recruited too many people.

( behind blue eyes )

i guess i'm starving
you brushed my leg
and my heart jumped
a spurt of adrenaline
light headed
shaky
starry eyed
and i dont even love you

my painting is killing me. the hair is fro-ing so bad its ridiculous.

well, one final down. i think i did well.
thinkanother reality check w/ timm today ( Read more... )

ahh im watching the state of the union and its killing me...

not really much to say.

fun seeing everyone today and rubbing stuff in.

finals finals finals

mmmm sloppy joes

ooo and i have a nasty ass bump on my spine from volleyball.

nice.

in times of turmoil
who do you turn to?
it matters.

you know that i trust you
do that what you must do
well, last night was a perfect last weekend night ( Read more... )

maybe it's pms or maybe i just have a lot of kinda kept in emotional issues going on right now, but i just broke down completely and started crying because our computer guy deleted limewire from my computer... if that tells you anything ( Read more... )

i am getting really frustrated w/ my dad's drinking. not that its ugly or vicious. but i think i can tell now, and just hate how fuzzy he gets ( Read more... )

wow another one of those nights...

how happy should i be ( Read more... )