everybody seems to be discovering/exploring/losing/finding themselves. everything is in a state of disarray, and i love and hate that it is happening all at once ( Read more... )

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ok, picking up where i left off last night ( Read more... )

what you seen my fucking journal ( Read more... )

i feel like i've been on pins and needles with a lot of people lately.

but i cant think of anyone in particular
or any instances
so maybe its just me
feeling weird.

more later

aggghhh my head hurts like all insanity ( Read more... )

this is what i've figured ( Read more... )

something odd i realized...
i have become very used to coming in second. not only in life, which i think is a fine quality, but with people. maybe thats not good.

wow today was sickening.
in a couple different ways.
and for a couple of different reasons.
but i liked it.

holy crap, let me just say that i did not want to know what lauren did on her ski trip with andrew, and now that i know i wish i didnt. christians are (ironically enough) the freaking horniest people on the planet. uuugghhhhyyyy ( Read more... )

holy crap he was right. i knew it at the time but i didnt even think about it completely. it was totally for attention. i know the exact feeling. hoping that someone will find what you are "hiding" so that something (whatever that something might be) will happen. it is so easy for them to see if even a little something changes. you pray that they ( Read more... )