wanting something (or someone) you can't have is frustrating. maybe some chances just arent worth taking. And if they are, how does one go about summoning the courage? I wish I was more confident, but my past doesn't really allow it. But then again, I'm not the same person I used to be. If I want a change in myself, I have to work on it. I've done ( Read more... )

So Ive decided I want to tae over SUNY Cortland. At the end of my freshman year I have made several accomplishments. In the past month I got accepted to be an Orientation Assistant this summer, accepted into LEAD (a selective leadership group that has a large role on campus), and elected SUNY Cortlands Associate Director of Publicity for RHA. I ( Read more... )

wow i was weird yesterday. ignore those entries.

yeah...its official...im listening to konstantine.

ok, the last few days ive been slipping back into my old depressed self. i havent felt this way in awhile. a long while. and it scares me because ive been so happy for so long. but i just cant get happy lately. i dont really feel like talking to anyone except for a few people that i cant talk to. i dont feel like doing anything. i sit in my room ( Read more... )

I knew this would happen. "You dont know what youve got til its gone". i thought i was completely fine with it, but tonight really fucked me up. The anxiety and the stress, and the waiting...then the acceptance it wouldnt happen, then it happened. Then it just wasnt right...

i really didnt think this was going to happen.

but here i am wanting her

AAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sweet night. awesome people, drama free, really drunk. totally "presh." going to sleep now. goodnight

Ive really got to get my shit together before I fail out of college. This cant continue

I've often been told the story of the time my moms dog got lost. It was the middle of the winter. They had put up signs all over town that offered a reward. He had been missing for about a week. One day a few guys that looked like they barely had enough money to eat walked up the driveway carrying the dog in their arms. The dog was frozen stiff ( Read more... )