oh man. fuck you kasey. last night was horrific. it didnt seem real. well, i told my mom that it was jesikas 18th birthday party and she was having a sleepover so i could stay in town. and i did. i went to my house to get my things for overnight then we went to aarons to see what they were doing before going to jesikas. a lot of them were drinking ( Read more... )

yes. hopefully drinkin tonight and not going to das. update later.

got six dreads in the hair. not done yet.

this distance, this dissolution, i cling to memories, while falling, sleep brings release and the hope of a new day waking the misery of being without you

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you know? ouch. fuck. im fine. FUCKING. yup
tyler is coming over tomorrow. im excited.
but you.
suck.

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woahhhh. i slept so long last night. i went to bed at one a.m. and woke up at six p.m. i want to go back to bed. i have no idea what happened of melanie last night. yesterday i had a photo shoot at the oly club. it was oh so fun. i got there at 9 and left at like two thirty when it was supposed to end at twelve. there were six photographers and ( Read more... )

oh i love my friends. all the ones that make me feel loved. i love seeing derek. i love his hugs, and when he talks to me. i love that i will always be alright with him. he freestyled tonight, i thought it was wonderful, although thats not really my thing ( Read more... )

ohh i want some tofu. and a job. jobs are for cigarettes mmm.

i have been thinking about so many things lately. last year in particular, last summer, visiting gravesites, and writing new stuff in my purple notebook, which i havent done in a way too long time. just like it hurts to see a friend dying, it hurts 29820349740987509 times more to see them laying in their deathbed. and it hurts to see one confused, ( Read more... )

i had this dream last night that this "scraggaly boy" was in school with me and mel and some other friends and he was sitting by us and he looks up at melanie and says "cherise, how do we do this problem?" so i start freaking out. "I'M CHERISE! WHAT THE HELL?! YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO I AM?!" yea. interesting. collllldddddd.