fall is coming. for sure. im already depressed. after my horrible ordeal with my tonsils, i just feel so incredibly drained. i cant believe how down i am right now. i know i have clinical depression, but this is way early. and im still lonely. and it seems nothing can change that. i miss old times, the way it was. august nights, windows down in my ( Read more... )

blah.

life can be so fucking confusing.

and i am one with the bike.

lately it seems like im always happy. i smile. and laugh. but the last two or three days, not so much. everyone is different. it is what makes this world interesting. i wouldnt dream of trying to change that, or make someone try and be more like me. or do things like i do things. but at the same time, i think the way i do things is pretty good. ( Read more... )

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i hate how everyones myspace pics have thier showers in them.

wow, im not even gonna atempt to fix the grammer issues in this post.

i get to sleep untill 4 tomorrow if i want.

yippe.

i cant believe im working 6 days in a row. im so freaking tired, im having trouble mustering up the energy to go out drinking. but its a good tired. im pretty happy about how my life is going these days... actually, im super happy. its funny how things fall into place once you stop looking.

so tonight was not so bad. actually it was pretty good. fun time at bens grad party, jamming out. then crazy 8's in the clem. so many people i knew from high school, it was good to see them. one in particular. she is a sweetheart, and very cute. such blue eyes ( Read more... )

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i still sit on the futon and look around my apartment like i just moved in. i still cant believe that im actually out. total freedom. its bizzare. i dont check in to anyone. it makes me smile. i cant believe i ever worried that someone was wondering where i was every second of the day. never again. i can smoke, drink and hang out with my friends ( Read more... )