I don't know. Everything is still hard. Nothing is showing up to save me. Growing frustration and disgust. Blah blah ( Read more... )

I am still doing something wrong ( Read more... )

My remaining cat is bored with me. I can't blame him. I leave him alone for hours at a time, and when I finally do come home, all I do is sit around or sleep. In my defense, it's all I can do. I don't get to be here nearly as much as I'd like, and I'm too tired and out of money to not remain motionless. If I had my druthers, there'd be plenty ( Read more... )

Where the hell is my miracle ( Read more... )

Is anything ever not going to be awful ( Read more... )

I met the person who DID get the customer service position at work. She's very nice and easygoing. She's also eleven years younger than I am, grew up in the wealthy suburb next to mine, and was working for her mom's art museum until now ( Read more... )

I deposited SP's check ( Read more... )

Ugh, something is happening to my brain. Twice in recent months, I've COMPLETELY forgotten where I'm supposed to be on a certain day ( Read more... )

Something my new neighbor-friend and I talked about last week is what he calls "the illusion of an alternate better life." That's the cynicism in your head that says if you had just turned left, instead of right, none of the bad things that followed would have ( Read more... )

I'm so saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaadddd (and whiny). Make it stop.