At some point, I'm going to have to start making posts my friends and family can read. The whole "blogging" thing only works if one has followers. One can only have followers if she allows her entries to be read. So far, every time I've made a post public, it has been a forced decision, and I wind up feeling somewhat censored. I also do not ( Read more... )

In the past two weeks, I've seen my idol live, chatted with and gotten a love note from my childhood hero, and watched the most important celebrity in my life perform from only 25 feet away ( Read more... )

Yeah, I'm definitely going to need a frequent overnight guest coming up here ( Read more... )

I met Weird Al Yankovic tonight. He is my childhood hero ( Read more... )

It turns out there was a period in which my mother drank so heavily, while nursing me, that I turned yellow and lethargic. I knew it. I knew I was also abused as a baby. One can't be this hollow and sick all the time, having ever been cared for.

Last night, I dreamed SP was helping me organize things at my grandmother's house. I guess she was having a party of some kind, as several family members arrived while we were there. I think in my dream world, SP was a regular attendee of such gatherings, though it wasn't something I addressed. My brother was visiting, and kept randomly ( Read more... )

The weather is reminding me of where I was just about a year ago, and the months following - all of which turned out to be just another beginning, rather than the torturous journey's end I'd hoped for. I'd been in my apartment a few weeks by this time - long enough to put most things away, but probably still angry my landlords hadn't cleaned like ( Read more... )

This show I'm doing... as devastated as I am about the continual calendar conflicts, and the money it's costing me, I have forgotten to say how important it is. It is heartbreaking how important it is. I want so desperately to have financial security, so I can just love this show for how amazingly important it is ( Read more... )

I don't understand what is happening. Out of fucking nowhere, for the first time since I've been working at SC, someone needs their auditions run THREE WEEKS EARLY. And guess fucking what. I have the goddamn show I agreed to, and cannot run them. Another $50 gone, with the extra sting of "Now that I'm no longer doing these for free." and "Money ( Read more... )

I'm not going to make it very much longer. Just sayin'.