I've put it all behind me ( Read more... )

Pride can stand a thousand trials
The strong will never fall
But watching stars without you
My soul cries

America reminds me of the bully on the playground that picks on others based on his own fears and insecurities....

Cant stand her but I adore these lyrics:

Notice me, take my hand ( Read more... )

"this is something that i’ve tragically adapted to.
cellophane my heart to pull the knife out of my back from you
and god won’t tell me if he wants me to live
don’t speak to me in the way you portray in your hymns
don’t breathe through me in the way that you say that you live
and don’t treat me differently when satan insists."

Still hurting really bad....I forgot what its like to feel this way ( Read more... )

After everything why?
Why can't I stop loving you?
Why can't I stop wondering what you are doing?
And how you are feeling...
And if you miss me as much as I am missing you.
I wish I did hate you.
As much as I say I do.
Because I know I could do better.
But I just don't want to.
I hate the fact.
That you have that power over me.
That I allow you to effect me ( Read more... )

Pleanty of options which means so very little to me. They message, text, call and I could. I fucking could take them up on their offers. I wish I had the strength to go out on a date, meet someone new but the only thing its doing is distracting me from the problem at hand, only temporarily taking my mind off of what I wanted so very badly for so ( Read more... )

I fight fires with words because its all that I have left...

...Adjusting myself back into this reality, a life I don't even recall because my memory doesn't serve me well and I think its because I dont want to remember. I don't want to remember a single fucking thing about it.
I've got a bad disease. Its the kind where I can't be left alone, it eats ( Read more... )

Came in from a rainy Thursday on the avenue ( Read more... )