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sick and sick again
my entire body feels like its going to crumble up. i wish i could take sedatives and sleep for days without feeling. if only. -
nothjing i can take to relieve my belly ache
I dunno. I'm feeling kindof aweful. School is cancelled for this semester due to lack of students. This was my chance out of my rut. I'm applying EVERYWHERE and i'm still not getting any bites. My dad is going thru some pretty drastic medication changes, so he is home and i have to deal with his mood swings. I feel like i'm not getting anywhere. ( Read more... ) -
tears stream down my face
I feel like such a failure. like i cant do anything right. I cant seem to get a job. I cant seem to get a date. I fail my test again and again and again. Its getting quite ridiculous that i'm 23 and still do not have my license or at least my permit. I just cant seem to catch a break ( Read more... ) -
for days and days and days
I think i'm cursed. and i may be in a funk. both suck ass. I want to go into my room and cry -
shake that ass
I have a date this weekend with someone I met at the bar. I dont know what i should wear. my mom is already trying to control on what we should do. I need to move out ASAP. I'll hear what she has to say and lie to her, but I'm not changing my mind, becuz she feels "uneasy". Fuck that! -
no i wont
I really will never have kids. Its alright to have them for a day or two, but i could never hold that much responsibility and patience that a parent has. Its not for me. Not even curious. fuck that! -
stand up and shout
I loved M.I.A. before she got all popular. I still get excited when I see her song paper planes, being played on the TV and radio. I hate that they deleted the gunshots. I hate that she's all famous and ppl like her music now, but not when she was a no-name of the mainstream. It bothers me . -
i survived and you dont even care
I had surgery and survived. My leg is so gross looking. it bothers me just to look at it. I can walk now which is good. but a couple of things are bothering me ( Read more... ) -
sad things
sometimes i miss philly and sometimes i dont. i miss the familarity of places, streets, buses. but i dont miss the crime and darkness. I know that its always said, but i still wish we still lived in lawncrest. I wish lawncrest was what it was 10 years ago, to now. wishful thinking...... i know. but wouldnt it be nice? -
your all so nice
All the kids start school this week, and I'm still without a job. Unemployment is up at the end of september, so i need something by then. This week I have a blood test and then 2 more weeks, will be my surgery/vein stripping. I'm not afraid, but this recovery stage may bite me in the ass. I will probably wind up back down town for a job. Unless i ( Read more... )