So, I'm getting surgery in the second week of september. I am having my varicose vein stripped. In order for the physican to do this, they will need to cut into my skin, place a rod thingie into my vein, zap it, and then pull it out. I will be copmpletely immobile for 48 hours, and then it will take a week for me to recover. With all this, I am ( Read more... )

I am doing a little experiment. Nothing kinky. I signed up for Match.com. I'll let you know how it goes. I have 6 months to find a date for.... anything really. We'll see. Its only been day 1, and i have two emails from the least likely i'll date. One guy loves pasta. I cant eat pasta.... do he's out. and the only guy..... i dunno ( Read more... )

just when i get all excited that i gained weight, i feel this undesirable need to loose it again. Like, I want to gain weight so my mom isnt always on my back and I'm tired of buying smaller clothes. I gain weight and my second thought is, "how can i loose it"? what is wrong with me? i'm underweight as it is.

It's like, I want you dead.

but it will never happen.

cuz i'm not a killer.

but Dexter is.

I think there is something wrong with me. i mean, not physically, becuz i'm attractive and all. but like, i went out with John like 3-4 weeks ago, then i get a text from him while i was at the shore, asking me if i wanted to hang out. then i waited all day Saturday for him to call and/or come over, and he never did. I mean, he didnt call or text or ( Read more... )

I think I'm dating again. with a boy i have always liked.
its so weird.
also, how about being down to North Wildwood for 6 days, and NOT getting a TAN.
it only seems to happen to me.
while we were at one of the pier;s, they played Galang by M.I.A.
it was the best

I love to get up late and watch the world move around me. Most days I feel exactly like this; that I'm standing completly still. I wonder when I can join in. 

my life is finally staring. i'm taking two classes this summer, and more into the fall to get a Certificate in Medical Coding. sounds dumb, i know. But its something for me. And i'm paying out of pocket for it, so its kindof like, i can't screw-up. I start next week. I am beyond excited. and even more, i get to buy a notebook and pencils. I feel so ( Read more... )

Okay, so its been 6 days since i lost my job. I was been doing a world of nothing. mostly i spend my mornings sleeping, then i'll exercise and do yoga. then i'll shower. then I'll watch tv/movies and wait for my family to come home. After the world of employee's sleep, i'm awake on the computer, reading, or watching late night tv ( Read more... )

so i got fired from my job at the lawfirm of 3 years. I was extremely upset for about 4 hours; crying and feeling worthless.. Now i’m just mad. I mean, they didn’t even give me a warning, they just up and told me to leave "quietly" i did, but i should have caused a ruckess or something ( Read more... )