So I'm totally impressed with this book I'm reading, after only 3 chapters. The third chapter really got me thinking. Turns out I'm driven by my need to make other people happy. Nearly everything I do I do in order to please someone else, on one level or another. Even when I daydream or fantasize I always picture myself doing something that ( Read more... )

So today I'm feeling very, very lost. Actually, I've been feeling that way for a very, very long time now. Soon I will be turning 20 years old, and this makes me very, very sad. I will no longer be a teenager, but I still feel like I'm 13. I have no idea what I want to do, and time seems to be slipping by quickly. Very quickly. Soon my ( Read more... )

I didn't die today. This is good. Today I took a test about the mightiness of American history, and I destroyed it. Questions were asked; I destroyed them with answers. Correct answers. It was amazing. I think I'm gonna drop out of college and sign on with a cruise line in Miami. Miami is a great place. Miami, Florida, that is. There is ( Read more... )

I posted a huge entry but something when terribly wrong. Anyway, tomorrow I must fix everything that is wrong in my life so that I can reach my full potential and stop feeling guilty about wasting my life. You know how that shit goes. I'm giving myself 24 hours to fix everything, so I should get some sleep.

It's been a long time since I've written in this, but for some reason I am back at it again. I am very tired right now, and therefore I will not write a lot. But rest assured, I will return, and I will have something to say, or at least I'll pretend that I have something to say. John Kerry needs 27 more delegates to win the Democratic Nomination ( Read more... )

Jesus I'm tired but I can't go to sleep. This is killing me. I've turned into a real insomniac here. Over the last week I have stayed awake for 24 hours straight on two occasions. Thats not good. Sleep is so overrated. I wish I could stay awake all the time and never have to sleep. Or eat. Eating and sleeping take up too much damn time. I' ( Read more... )

I feel like shit...I was up till 5am last night and I got up at 2 this afternoon. I feel completely unmotivated, like I didn't even want to get out of bed this morning. I have no idea what the hell is going on. I feel like I have no control over my life, I've been skipping classes, my mood is dipping fast, I haven't been turning stuff in, I've ( Read more... )

Don't take yourself too seriously. No one else does.

My laws for life...is this what it's really all about? If it were up to me, it would be ( Read more... )

I'm tired of trying to control my life and I'm tired of not having any control over it at all. I've gone back into this mode again where I have this need to find the meaning of life and become fulfilled of whatever again. Why can't I just do what I want to do and enjoy it? Why do I always have to stop myself and tell myself that I was meant for ( Read more... )