Right now I'm going through a million and billions emotions per second without really understanding what I feel deep within. I think it's mainly because I've already experienced and cried all that I cried and accepted with fear of the inevitable. The only person I am responsible is myself I have to tell myself I did the best that I can. Somehow ( Read more... )

I guess the problem with my life is that I'm 28 years old. I see myself as extremely difficult. I am having an addiction problem with my medication because I feel as though I was to use and feel happy. I want to be okay maybe I'm just trying to get use to the feeling of the medication. Yes for the first time I'm finally taking meds. I decided about ( Read more... )

I'm completely drenched. I'm emotionally exhausted.I wonder to whom am I typing this for.Is it for myself or is it for me. I feel like I'm satisfying two beings when I only should be satisfying 1 ( Read more... )

Well after reading all of the ridiculousness of my life and how immature I was for the continuing years, I don't even have words to explain for the kind of person that I was ( Read more... )

On Tuesday I wanted to do something adventurous, I wanted to really step out of my shell and do something I haven't done before, I've always wanted to go to a Drum and Bass gig, I had so much fun doing it but It wasn't as fun as I thought it was going to be, the trip over there was a hassle but the place was sorta of fun, I mean I could of gone to ( Read more... )

The beginning of this Chapter of my Life has finally started after 24 years, I've alleviated so much pain that I had on the inside, I feel like a whole new person ready to take charge of his life. I haven't been so sure because I've been thinking about my friends, but things are better kept in the past, I have so much power inside my heart, you ( Read more... )

Hey so finally after 6 days of torture from the toothache, I've learned a lot also, from really dealing with it, The infection on my face has finally lifted and it was hell for what I was going through, I couldn't eat or sleep or swallow anything, I didn't really have much support from anyone but I knew how to survive, I mean I could just be a bit ( Read more... )

So on wednesday I've finally got out of work like around 9, took the train hope and as I was thinking, I told myself; wow I really wish I can go out right now and dance, because it's not like I have any friends who's ever interested in going out with me maybe I should force myself to go out. I was a bit skeptical at first because I felt like I'd ( Read more... )

The whole time in advance,no person ever really needs a friend, they just need themselves and the more you tell your self that the more you realize you really do love yourself. It's sad because people do nothing but pity others instead of really looking into themselves, and finding the reasons why they are worth something,I've found every worth of ( Read more... )

It's been such a long time since I've written here, there so many thoughts and so many things to write. I've finally reached a point in my life where I can look and think and be blessed with the life given to me ( Read more... )