i am officially tired of everything. im sick of my life. im sick of feeling guilty bc my parents dont work and dont have money for SHIT. im tired of myself, for caring too much about dumb fuckers, and hurting the people that care about me most. im tired of my GOOD fucking deeds not being recognized, but the tiniest mistake i make gets blown up like ( Read more... )

the expectations that are held for me are so innacurate. but right on point at the same time. i know what im capable of, and what im not. i break my own fucking heart. im so tired of letting the people that care about me down. i understand why i dont get second chances. ha. ive already had second chances.. 3rd chances.. 4th.. shit the list goes on ( Read more... )

hey guys. long time no talky. i have a xanga now. lol if any of yous care. www.xanga.com/all_i_need_is_mee. im updating in here, bc there are somet things i only feel comfortable talking about with my livejournal. lol. weird huh? guess ive just poured so many of my thoughts and feelings into this thing, ill always come crawling back. i really need ( Read more... )

so here ive been all day, feelin sorry for myself bc i didnt have a boyfriend to screw today. and then i got home and realized valentines day isnt about just having a boyfriend, its about showing the people you love, how much they mean to you.

i love my parents, so freakin much. theyre always here supporting me, understanding me, allowing me to ( Read more... )

it took me forever to fall asleep last night. i couldnt get the whole thing off my mind. i stressed what to do.. what to say.. what not to do.. how to go about the whole thing. and i realized.. i owe you an apology. an apology for not understanding. for being hard headed about the whole thing. im sorry for caring SO much it pisses me off when i ( Read more... )

i just dont get it. i mean i SERIOUSLY dont. what is so special about these bap ass relationships these days? fuck a boyfriend, fuck a relationship, fuck valentines day. ew. what a waste of time. fuck waitin up at night worryin about a peice of shit. i mean damn, you know hes either out cheating on you bein a whore, or gettin fucked up. which are ( Read more... )

i had the worst day..

ever.

and i still gotta go to work.

grrrrrrrrrrrreat.

hey. so i figured id take the time now to update, since amies in the shower and theres nothing else to do.  its ferreal been a while since i updated.

thursday me and amie went shopping. she lent me $100. i love her like whoa. i think that was the most money ANYONE has ever let me borrow. lol. and fo sho the most ive ever owed a person.

i got my ( Read more... )

im so annoyed. so0o0o0o0o damn dis-fuckin-custed.

im tired of people bein FAKE. im sick of people i used to love and care about become trashy whores. (that goes for guys and girls) all the things i used to respect in people.. got smoked away and i hate them. i hate people doin shit bc its "cool". FUCK. you look SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO stupid. dont lie ( Read more... )

so for the past few years, ive had this horrible.. identity disorder. i never knew.. who i wanted to be. never wanted to truely "offend" anyone, or turn people i cared about away. but, damn. what a waste of time.

check this.

im obnoxious as FAWK.

i cuss like a sailor.

im rude.

im loud.

im aggressive.

im goofy.

i laugh.. alot.

i think im ghetto. ( Read more... )