im not the same person i was before. thats the general opinion im getting from the people who have known me the longest and are thus supposed to know me the best. but they dont. so im not the same person i was before. is that so bad. nothings the same as it was before. and people evolve. that person i was before, whoever she may be, maybe ( Read more... )

im not a mean person by nature. or selfish either. but people do make mistakes. no one ever said i was perfect. oh wait he did. todays the day though that everything comes back to me. and though ive always hoped this day would never come. i deserve it. so call me names. say what it is you want to say. ill take it till you turn away. ( Read more... )

i need some time by myself. i need to fucking find me. i feel like lately ive been trying to be someone else. ive been trying so hard to be that person you need. and its wearing me out. i feel like its slowly killing me. but im trying so hard. im trying so fucking hard. all i want is to be that person you think i am. that person you need ( Read more... )

rilo kileys on the stereo and my girlfriends in the shower. my bodies pretty sick but im feeling quite fine. im doing pretty good in fact. i realized earlier that its been about a month and half since this all started. and you know what, im alright with that. yeah though im still sure that this isnt anything permanent, anything long lasting, ( Read more... )

i should be doing my homework right now. er well actually i should be in school. somehow that never quite works out like it should. somehow things never work out like i thought they would. everythings pretty outta control right now. ive been wasting my time and dicking around. yeah this time i really fucked up though. hmmm. schools not ( Read more... )

last night was fun. last night was horrible. last night was great. last night was drunken fun. and designated driving. it was meeting new people and learning about old ones. it was zoolander played about three times. it was crotch shots and unspoken talks. it was empty kisses with people you dont know and meaningfull ones with close friends ( Read more... )

everythings messed up when im with you. but nothing makes sence without you. if you want to go to san franciso for thanksgiving you know that ill go. and when i go away for the weekend you call and suddenly i miss you. everytime you whisper my name i start to fall further. and for the love of god im holding on. i hope that you can forgive me ( Read more... )

i can only take so much. and for me you cant expect much. im trying to get away but i can only go so fast. in fact im very slow. i want things to last longer that they do and slower ones to be over soon. somewhere is a man who five out of seven days says he misses me. and somewhere is a girl who cant stop kissing me. "this goes so much ( Read more... )

its funny how sometimes things come out of nowhere. how one day everything can be fine, and yet everything be exactly opposite the next. yesterday was a long day. this lack of sleep is wearing me thin. and this he she filling everyones needs thing is wearing me down. life is wearing me out. right now everythings fine. as fine as its going ( Read more... )

hmmm i dont remember what pics ive put up before and which ones i havent. whatever.
hahaha just cause nicole hates this pic. my trying to be cool pic
i play with my tongue and chew on my own lip alot. i just learned this
i have such a love hate relationship with those glasses. they make me think of chris