ohhh my wonderful life ( Read more... )

i was just speaking to erin about hanging out with her and carolyn sometime. they are two girls i have found and actually could see myself being close with. i hate girls. honestly. so i have always limited myself to hanging out only with boys. that always ends up with me either liking someone, or them liking me. which, in some cases, has been more ( Read more... )

today something happened to me that hasn't happened in a long time. my feelings are totally hurt and here we go again with my problem, lacking trust. i truly dislike drama. i try my best to avoid it, and to be honest, there are only, i believe, three people out there who i really dislike for solid reasons and they actually know it. other than that ( Read more... )

perhaps this is what was necessary in my life ( Read more... )

in my mind the past week seems to have been a long one. i have gone running, sprinting, back to things i once found comfort in, or perhaps, still do find comfort in. i love boys. i hate most girls. the fact of the matter is that it appears that i am weird to be a girl and hangout with mostly boys. the truth to this matter is that boys do not bitch ( Read more... )

so, so, so. not too much is new. same old, same old. days keep on rollin', sun keeps risin' and settin'. i have learned that no matter what, the world isn't going to stop spinning. everything happens for a reason, and even if i do not understand certain things now, maybe someday i will. i hope so. i have made a couple new friends and i enjoy them a ( Read more... )

relationships are stupid. they are a waste of time and emotion. i talked to someone today and we decided that, at least in both of our cases, relationships are used for comfort. always having someone to talk to who you know cares about you. always having someone to talk to before bed, to say goodnight and i love you to. well you know what; i don't ( Read more... )

i give up
on
everything.

something that is always beautiful in some aspect is love. the art of two people being intimate and caring. for the record, love is something, that from this day on, i will run away from as fast as i can. i don't want love. i just had it. experiencing love is something that words can't even put a decent definition on. it is waking up everymorning ( Read more... )

people come and go and normally it doesn't effect me much. i have learned to constantly keep this wall up, therefore, if someone decides they are going to no longer be a part of my life i can feel secure in knowing that i haven't lost anything. it all really makes sense to me. total sense. my "best friend" is stupid. she bitch bitch bitches at me ( Read more... )