i wish i felt NOTHING. i dont want to be in love. i don't want to care. i just want to be left alone. my heart is about to be broken and the anticipation of it coming is the scariest thing i have ever experienced. i have done all that i can do to please you. why can't you see that? i am sorry i am young and still have rules to follow and can't ( Read more... )

the fact of the matter is that i am trying.
i am trying so hard, yet i am failing according to the only other opinion i care about.
sometimes there is only so much i can do.
not everything is up to me, although i may wish it was.
one thing i wish even more than that was that i wish you understood.

i want to do my best at each goal i set up for myself ( Read more... )

am i really such an awful person?
i dont understand anything and no one really understands me.
i miss my fucking old friends damnit.
everyone moved, or i just lost touch with.
i just want my best friend back.
i will keep my good times and memories in my pocket all day everyday, but sometimes i really wish i could bring the memories back to life

autumn and winter always bring back such bittrersweet memories for me ( Read more... )

it is so wonderful when someone can admit they are in the wrong.
it is a beautiful thing to see someone develop.
nothing makes me more happy than getting along with people i once cared for.
the last half hour has made me smile.

i felt like i was standing on the edge of a tall cliff for a while, but as of right now everything is calming down and i'm not on the edge anymore. i feel almost completely content with my life right now. i do need a job, which is constantly on my mind. and i do need to keep up with my artwork and creating a portfolio. keeping in touch with people ( Read more... )

part of learning is experiencing ( Read more... )

this weekend was wonderful ( Read more... )

things are sort of calming down ( Read more... )