Eight months later and I am now again at the crossroads. New scenery. New look. New everything. Leveling up was something that came very casually but this point bares a view of a vast path that is going to take more energy and supplies then any before. In my heart we are holding hands. Those hands will be far apart as far as we know in the future. ( Read more... )

The activities and former interests of my former self feel unnatural and backwards for the person I am today. But the Person I am today feels nothing new and walks the same paths he knew before. With this roadblock, my head feels clouded ( Read more... )

Night feels ever constant with glimmers of day while I start to wake. With no days, time becomes fully constant and linear. No stops. I keep going. Train times. stop lights. work schedule. These now dictate my life in the directions and moments I find myself in. No home. Just various stops of comfort. No constant. I barely exist ( Read more... )

i still breathe from these depths. Not gasping just yet for the light. In this darkness I play and nestle in a form of a social cloak and behind the locks that I gained length in protection. My alignment is off but the road is still traveled. Acceleration declined, I still feel as myself and catch my spirit before it goes off the rails. I still ( Read more... )

The lush rich soil of SF night life that I have danced and kicked the dust up on is now shown to be social quicksand. Caught in a whirlpool of many faces who have shared many nights with each other leaves me feeling restrained and tense. I don't want to fall down to the murky depths of many others. Their brains and heart and soul left to fend for ( Read more... )

Shed of my former skin, i tackle reality vulnerable but feeling fresher than ever. The callouses that have proven defensive against oncoming emotions and thoughts no longer exist physically. A forward head and quick language keep me afloat among those who i feel as if a new person among. No squeals or breaking down. But my soul is worn thin by the ( Read more... )

the speed of life is not something to be taken lightly. months and months of life in the rast and fast lane leave me clueless and pumping the brake pedal as hard as i can to adjust to these 25 mph lanes of life. What seemed like a rational and charitable East Bay vacation quickly materialized into a long weekend mental rehab. the presence of her, a ( Read more... )

Rely on others to make you happy when you yourself cannot make yourself happy until you can make yourself happy again. Do the same for the people you know truly you can. that is whole point as to why you keep those people in your life.

life from inside the fantasy world is surreal to say the least ( Read more... )

On this day twenty three years ago Austin k plumb came into this world. On this day today Austin k plumb is old ( Read more... )