sometimes i wish i didn't always want to make everyone happy because when shit happens to where i feel i'm in the right i still feel as if i'm wrong in some way. everyone told me it was stupid, pointless shit that someone's just going to have to fucking deal with ( Read more... )

humans are not intelligent. we're mearly half cocked computers with a sketchy hard-drive. i love my family. my brother and sister are the coolest people i know. my parents care about me more than anything in the world. this makes me happy.

life is devceiving. truth is truely a pathless journey. now i see it can throw you for a spin of halucinations and unintentional coctails. this path seems unusually familiar, not strange familiarities that the vain human clings on to for a sense of presense in his world but familiarities that once reminded you that you're alive and that it IS ( Read more... )

so maybe i'm not that great of a bowler but god damn it i can fake it! i could only wish to be amongst the godlike types in the 300 club. one day, one day ( Read more... )

strange and unreal red boxes with a view of the world but so cut off it doesn't make a difference. it was a good past couple days. sure a few let downs here and there, thursday night wind concert, saturday morning parental lecture ( Read more... )

so yesterday was kyles birthday and we did everything our overworked little mind could do to make it a little different than the rest of the days. many movies watched, bowls, beers. but throughout most of the day i was occupied by my portable talkbox. it would often beep with bright messages of future possibilities. should one be on guard in a ( Read more... )

wow, that last entry got pretty desperate. need to focus.

productivity was not the word of the day. especially when you loose about 6 hours to sleep. went over to jarrods to jam but never even took my instrument out of the case. though i did watch an amazing film based on a true story called "The City of God ( Read more... )

so once again it's that time of the year where everyone's spun on cough syrup and i'm no exception. i woke up this morning coughing up blood. not good, i know. so where do you go when you can't leave the house? the computer. some strange box that takes me to a world of psuedo-intelectuals and free porn. hazah ( Read more... )

being sick really sucks. being alone sucks. simply being sucks right now.