i've been having these dreams lately where i'm skinny and rich and gorgeous and dating someone even more gorgeous. dreams where i live these fantastical lives in places that don't really exist... they're starting to piss me off ( Read more... )

i'm not mad; i'm done. but maybe this is another one of those situations where i can't really be done until the other person knows that's it's completely over. do not call me, do not email or instant message. just go away. have your life and leave mine alone ( Read more... )

i have recently acquired a new pet spider.
he is the size of my hand and lives in my car.
he likes to play hide-and-seek a lot.
and he's much better at it than i am.

well, haven't updated in 6 days, apparently. there was a party last night and i... am just so confused. were they just empty words, or were they true? and if they're true, exactly what is stopping the action? i don't know. all i know is that i'm at some sort of crosswinds, and i'm waiting to.. be blown? lol. something like that. it's a good feeling ( Read more... )

it's funny... it's so funny that you have no clue. it shouldn't be, but it is. maybe it's just the humor that masks the pain (because there definitely is pain), i don't know. but i think about it, when i'm tired of not, and part of me just wants to laugh at the irony of it all. it's so fucking ironic. not that i really expect you to get it, because ( Read more... )

you've been gone too long, and i'm sorry.

i've never been a good liar.

i'm just sitting here, so in love with matt nathanson that it almost hurts. another one of the guys that we really don't deserve, but i'm glad we have him ( Read more... )

Matt Nathanson
House of Blues, Orlando
July 26, 2006

( i was holding you so tightly when you needed help )

guys night, guys night, no girls allowed. there need to be more girls in the group.. but then again, no. i don't so much like hanging out with girls. i'm good with the ones i have ( Read more... )

mr. peacock proposed to ms. gates and she said yes!

sorry, but i'm excited. i've been waiting for that for a long time.