My living situation has been all over the place since the separation, my parents, our house for weekends or a week at a time, his mom’s (weird but the best place I’ve been able to stay) now back at our house which we are sharing the space; him in our old room me in the spare bedroom which I had previously made into a space I would want for myself. ( Read more... )

Heavy-metal, drugs, alcohol and sex! Jacob, quite frankly you're a mess but so am I! For whatever reason you messaged me, and I obliged with a reply.  California brings out the freaks for sure.  He never slept, was always inebriated, I asked him what his problem was, “I drink way too much!” No shit! That wasn’t exactly what I meant, please don’t ( Read more... )

My sweet Corey, you have a passion for one thing only and that’s hockey. I asked you what you want to do with your life and you with conviction said hockey, babe. I didn’t fully understand what exactly we were, the first phone conversation was very sweet. Yeah you called me bud like 50,000 times but apparently that is just the term you use for ( Read more... )

My most favorite person thus far is Alexander; he is a young- ish divorcee with custody of his two small beautiful children (girl and boy) 5 days of the week. His dedication to his little family amazes me, he works hours that would put any man in his grave, but he does it to provide an extraordinary life for those kids. He’s dark haired and light ( Read more... )

My stories began during my recent separations from my husband, him and I had met (online) many moons ago (159 months ago to be exact) fell in love now I have fallen out. There is nothing that could be done at this point to fix the damage we have done to each other. I’m ok with this, I’ve known for a VERY long time it should never have lasted as ( Read more... )

Getting past the self-criticism is challenging! I read a comment that was left by someone on here 5 yrs ago, it said “ I would highly recommend to live life free of worries and don’t put so many pressures on yourself, those energies can kill the soul.” Hell yeah they do, I haven’t allowed myself to grow because my own diluted thoughts have held me ( Read more... )

I’ve realized that I’m a competitive person, but I think it’s competitiveness for the wrong reason. I guess there is no wrong/right reason to be competitive because it drives us to be better people but then it also can be hold you back. The reason I say I’m doing it for the wrong reasons, is not because I want to better myself but I think to be ( Read more... )

Letter to my Depressed Self (While I’m depressed)

This is will pass; you have done it more than you can count on your hands at this point. Yes, things are so much gloomier and doomier (not a word, says the critical self) right now but come October when the weather starts to cool, you will be singing a different tune. Even though all you want to do ( Read more... )

My elevated moods are now on a tailspin downwards. I’m not having depressive thoughts or anything just kind of lulling about. At work I just try to push through the day, stay under the radar and not try to go above and beyond right now as I get through this dip in the road. The only time I smile or laugh these days is when I talk to my husband ( Read more... )

My sister in law posted an article today that discussed the problem behind the school shootings in so many states is because of psychotropic drugs. I didn’t take it as a jab at myself in any way, but I did take offense to the article. It’s straight of the mouths of ignorance, the person that wrote the article I’m sure has no personal experience ( Read more... )