So I've been trying to give my pale skin some color and have been trying to go to the pool.  Met a couple of girls that are in the building right next to mine and ended up chilling out and drinking beer the remainder of the evening with them. They seem like really good people which I need more of not that I don't already have good people in your ( Read more... )

I've been feeling really good lately and it's not because I'm not taking my medicine.  I just am happy with everything. Granted things aren't perfect but when are they ever I guess you could say I'm content.  I'm getting a creative bug lately but I just can't push it beyond what I'm already capable of.   I guess what I have to keep doing is walking ( Read more... )

I really reached a breaking point last month.  I've really made myself believe that I was stable the past three years, but I have been in a downward spiral that has finally sucked me dry and made me realize I keep making the same mistakes repeatedly mostly with school.  I just don't want to deal with it  ( school) right now.  I need to grow up and ( Read more... )

I've been reading some things on bi-polar disorders and reading people's journals that have it. I don't feel so abnormal anymore. I realized that my irritablity is just one of the symptoms of the disorder. As long as I've known that I had it...it's been almost 8 years now...I've never attributed my mood swings with the bi-polar. I thought for ( Read more... )

I've been busy I keep telling myself.....the truth is I really don't know what to write about. Things actually seem to be looking up for me. I'm trying to make some amends with people that I've hurt. This relationship may be salvagable. I've been asked to do some "design" work for a guy here. Angela helped me get into this. I say helped now ( Read more... )

Being 23 really sucks. I've realized that I've made so many bad decisions and hurt so many people during this year I think it's too late to try and pick up the pieces and put them back together. yeah....I'm gonna think about that. be back later