I deleted all other social media and yet I need an outlet so here I am. Newly diagnosed with Complex PTSD, Agoraphobia, High Anxiety and Major Depressive Disorder -with my already diagnosed ailments of Fibro, Rheumatoid and blah, blah, blah. I have wanted to die way more than I have wanted to live these last few years I will tell you that. My ( Read more... )

I can’t believe where I was to where I am is so vastly different. I have come a long way from the lost little punk rock girl to a woman with two amazing kids, a stable career, as of April I will have a college degree, I have an amazing husband, I am a home owner and soon I am about to start my own side business. I am the product of abuse; molest/ ( Read more... )

As usual, there has been too much to talk about. I am happy. I am sad. I am loved. I am hated. I love. I hate. I really just want my son to grow up from a kid to the man he is supposed to be. I want my husband to think of hobbies and needs other than his own and for some of my own traditions to take the forefront. I love him, but fuck me, he is ( Read more... )

Wow. It has been a very long time since I posted. Especially because before this post, my last one says I got engaged. I have been married a year, April 5 and our 2 year anniversary as a couple is on Wednesday. Time flies when you are having fun. So in a nutshell here is my life ( Read more... )

I AM ENGAGED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TOLD YOU, IT HAS ONLY JUST BEGUN!

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So many exciting things in the air. I can hardly breathe when I think about them. So I am trying not to think. Let’s just hope this continues.

Enough crazy ranting. I think I want to work on that autobiography I started, it was rather therapeutic. I need to talk about the crazy dating experiences over the last year, like the last date in which it ended with me dropping him off at a bar to hook up with another chick. It was lovely and I truly hope he got herpes. On a side note, job is well ( Read more... )

I went and had a spiritual cleansing and reading… It was so crazy enlightening… She said so much ( Read more... )

Who am I? I am a survivor. I have survived childhood physical and mental abuse, molestation, date rape. An abusive marriage. Significant loss, pain and hurt. I lost the only man I ever loved unconditionally to cancer and I didn’t realize the extent of the love until he was leaving, but I got to hold his hand when he left, and I now know what it is ( Read more... )