i have just recently started a personal journal, and all i can say is that it feels a hell of a lot better to write in than this stupid thing! i can write whatever i want, free of people's opinions(sometimes very rude ones). Now that i think about it, these things are just kind of lame. I mean, sure, i guess they could be useful to people that have ( Read more... )

ah fuck it. it was a lie.

last night, around 10:20, i did one of the stupidest things i have EVER done. i don't know what came over me, but i felt like i needed to say something, even though it would just make things worse by saying it. why do i have to be so stupid!? ....oh well, it's already done, so i suppose i'll just have to deal with it, right?

ick.

i've forgotton how great coldplay is. for the past two days all i've been listening to is A Rusy of Blood to the Head. and it's great. it's happy and sad music at the same time; it's just calm and meaningful. i like it. so i decided not to quit my journal. i'm definetely just doing this for myself. i don't care who reads this, if anyone ever does, ( Read more... )

i know i said that my last entry was the end. i take it back. sorry for ever pissing anyone off....or hurting their feelings....or being egotistical or selfish. sorry if i ever did anything to anger anyone. i'm makin a rapid turnaround. by the time school starts...you won't have to deal with my shit anymore ( Read more... )

this is my last update ever. what the hell was i thinking, sharing my weirdo mind with the world?! if i learned one thing from this, it's that you don't want to let people know you're a weirdo, try to keep that stuff to the people you really care about. otherwise the whole freaking world is gonna know how strange you are. hopefully i stopped this ( Read more... )

i went to jenny's beach bonfire tonight. there were way too many people there (at corona), but i guess it was fun. i was in some really odd mood though. it was kinda one of those depressed moods that makes you blow little things way outa proportion and ruins your night. just because i was feeling a little left out by certain people i totally ceased ( Read more... )

summer is here ( Read more... )

So i just got back from escorting my sister to her promotion dance(no, i didn't really "escort" her, but i saw her in at least). All i have to say is that first of all, the decorations were absolutely AMAZING, and second of all, why the hell didn't we get a dance like that last year!? i also finally saw my sister's boyfriend. he's very.....well, ( Read more... )

it's almost summer and i can't wait. for some reason i'm starting to feel like things aren't really that bad. i mean, school is almost over(THANK GOD), i've got a really fun busy summer planned, and even though nothing has really changed with friends or life in general, i think i've changed. i've been genuinely happy and i've decided that even ( Read more... )