I think my boyfriend is breaking up with me
Because I sabotage things.

It's ok. It's so much easier to be single. I love him too much. He deserves better. It's weird, love. My heart hurts. At least I didn't cheat. It's better to know.

I should wait until she's asleep.
I know it's selfish. I have nothing more to offer. There wont be any more letters. This is last call.

I started school and dropped out just as quickly.
They're taking my house.
I've got nowhere to go and no money.
I'm a horrible mom. Quite literally. It would be better for everyone I know if I disappeared.

I am going to lose my house. I can't afford it. If I could just catch up... if I could just catch up. I am a month behind on my mortgage. I have nowhere to go. I don't know what I am going to do. I am in collections for old bills, and will be again for newer ones. I have nothing left in me.

Trying to sort out my existence. More bills than income. Numb one way or another for a while. My boyfriend loves me, he worships me. I can do no wrong. I can be crazy and insensitive. I can make mistakes and go on drunken rampages. I can send cards to an accused mass murderer. I can run out of gas and he will come rescue me. But how long until he ( Read more... )

What the fuck am I doing.
Make this make sense.
I am hurt.
Nauseated, depressed.
I want to scream and cry and hit things with sticks.
How did I get here.hurt. sort it out. How do I fix this.

I am dating the biggest nerd ever.
I have also regressed into the voracious predator I once was.
Everyone is a target.
You are not safe.
Don't say I didn't warn you.
Break a heart --

Where are you?

i am going to kill myself tomorrow

I feel like there is