i think by this point i have become exclusively nocturnal. my natural circadian rhythms have been flipped on their heads and now i can't fall asleep before 3 am or wake up before noon (no matter how many alarms i set). this is so bonkers.

in other news life is not bad. i am working for this organization which is kind of wonderful, and i feel like ( Read more... )

• cook more (i am making garlic basil pasta with julienned zucchini as we speak, so i am well on my way to this one)
• go off the meds and manage my anxiety without them
• continue actually learning german
• work out more
• be less irrational

• TWO MORE DAYS OF CLASSES LEFT. What a bizarre feeling. I'm done with all my final papers and still have two presentations to give but I'm prepared for them.
• Hella good time last night with all my housemates. I'm kind of sad to be moving out next term...it's dirty and loud and cliquey as all hell, but I'm still part of it and when it's fun, it's ( Read more... )

AAH I LOVE FAKE SUMMER ( Read more... )

Mood swings lately. I have been realizing that I am not any less afraid than I used to be. Just afraid of different things.

One of the good things about this that I just began to acknowledge is that I am not afraid of people anymore. I may still be an introvert but I am no longer paralyzingly shy. And that is wonderful. I attribute so much of this ( Read more... )

i got a tattoo on monday. i'd been meaning to do it since last summer but had never gotten around to it until now. i spent the entire morning psyching myself out by imagining getting hepatitis (despite statistics showing trends to the contrary), but the artist took a brand-new needle out of its package in front of me so i suppose i shouldn't have ( Read more... )

 dear id,

please do not drink so much. it is getting expensive, you have alcoholism on both sides of your family, and please do not forget yesterday's epic fifteen-hour headache-dizziness-dehydration-nausea-and-vomiting hangover, which you would not wish on your worst enemy. i know you have found many ways to justify "just one more beer/shot/glass ( Read more... )

2008 is over and done with ( Read more... )

tomorrow i am moving into my first forealz apartment.* i...think this is a happy thing? maybe? i'm kind of terrified and feel like i didn't have enough time at home to decompress, but at the same time it seems like this is a Thing I Should Be Doing ( Read more... )

my brother casey, who is almost 10, wrote & illustrated a story at school called "a visit to bennington" about coming up and seeing me at college and how much fun he had and how much he missed me and he wouldn't let anyone help him with it or see it before he was finished and i just read it and it is ADORABLE. i love that kid.