I'm about to go hunting food, so this is just a quick hello ( Read more... )

An update from me....fun fun fun. 
My leave has been great. At first i really found it difficult to get used to normal sleep patterns, i was doing better then woke up at 5am today and couldn't get back to sleep.
But i'm not ok.

Yesterday, i cooked mexican for the junior doctors. I did a lot of food, spent most of the day preparing and cooking it. But ( Read more... )

Pretty shitty.
Nights really screwed me over. The sleep pattern is still messed up, and i'm really struggling. I hate not sleeping well.
Then there is food stuff.

Working 5pm till 3am is really hard on food. I was getting up about 2, having breakfast, then having a meal before going to work at 4:30, and then sometimes not getting to eat at all during ( Read more... )

....that i've now gone manic.
This is never good for me. It makes me jittery, it makes me not eat, it makes me a wreck really. Tonight hasn't been great work wise, at times considered screaming at the SHO/Reg. but i made it through. Earlier i was ready to fall asleep on the sofa, then i went too far, spent the time i haven't been on the wards ( Read more... )

Today i did actually start crying on the ward. I had a really difficult patient, i was so tired, and feeling shakey anyway. The nurses were lovely though, and i started to sort out the patient, and then i got a boost bar and a pro plus. I then felt much better.
The rest of the night has been busy but manageable. The same patient from earlier got ( Read more... )

Hello again.
Hopefully without jinxing myself i can say that tonight has been much quieter and calmer. Still had a fair amount to do, but it really slowed down after about 10:30pm (rather than 2am). I quite enjoy the nights to be honest. The hospital is so very very different at night than in the day. During the day its manic, loads of people, ( Read more... )

Hello, i don't have much time as i just poped into the doctors mess for a glass of water....i'm still here still alive. On nights until thursday/friday....today i have been slammed. I have only stopped rushing since about 2am. but 20 minutes and i finish. 2 cardiac arrest bleeps, 2 deaths from them, one i had to tell the husband and son. It sucks ( Read more... )

Really getting fed up of doing paperwork and stuff. I've had so much to do. It all so boring as well. But the stuff i really want, like my contract, i haven't got yet, so i still don't know what out of hours i'll be working or what banding and so pay i'll be on. It sucks. I will avoid going into the rant about jobs and stuff though cuz i'm sure it ( Read more... )

Back fom spain. But oh so sleepy! We had to get up before7am today to get to the airport. But we made it. I had a really nice time and it was great to catch up with bex. 
But now i'm back in the real world and have loads of crappy stuff to do. I'm seeing the consultant tomorrow as a 3 month post sugrery thing.
{note: i fucking hate my parents ( Read more... )

I will be off to the airport about 3 today for 5 fun filled days in spain with bex. Lots of wine and sun and gossip and i can't wait ( Read more... )