Every time I think I'm done letting myself get worked up over her, I do it again. This is why I just learn to hate things about people I can't love anymore, so I can stop thinking about them and talking to them. I still don't handle loss well, and every time I say anything to her it seems like the conversation ends so much earlier than it should ( Read more... )

So, I was in germany, gradually losing my mind because I was so far away from her. I came home, and we couldn't see each other because she was always busy. Then, just as we are almost through with the business and on to summer together she tells me that she has gotten used to just being a friend that talks online once in a while. She says that her ( Read more... )

So, I had a dream last night that I remembered when I woke up. I can honestly say it is the most fucked up feeling I had in a while, remembering that dream ( Read more... )

M'k, girlfriend doesn't know I even have this account, so I can ramble on about things without consiquence, presumably ( Read more... )

I'm in amsterdam. There was some sort of major communication glitch between myself and my mother, and it would seem that I beet her here by a day. Or more appropriately, by a night. I got here at 11:25, it is now 3:45, she arrives at amsterdam airport at 6. So, I sent my one and only a message saying that this was a screwed up night and I wanted ( Read more... )

So, I've managed to spend all of last semester pining for her. Then I got to germany and continued to wish we were together. Then she finally tells me that she wants to get back together, and I can't see her because I'm about 2000 fucking miles away. So what happens? My mind wanders, of course ( Read more... )

My host mom just came upstairs after using the sauna (apparently this house has a sauna, I had no idea until she just told me), and asked if I wanted to go use it now that they were done. I politely declined, because frankly, saunas have been ruined for me ( Read more... )

So, people that work together in factories and on assembly lines have one basic advantage over people that grow stuff for a living: It is easier to motivate them to stop working and go on strike. There was a time, in most countries, that unions were illegal. You see, buisness owners love the power that is granted to them in owning their own ( Read more... )

So, here we are in america, land of the free, home of the double cheese burger with fries. We are a capitolistic society, right ( Read more... )

So, we've been covering an awful lot lately in class about national socialism, which of course brings up the concepts of socialism, fascism, totalitarianism, democracy, republics, and all the others out there. So I thought I would take a minute to list what is good, what works, and why it does or doesn't in my view ( Read more... )