so this is it. i looked and looked for this sn and password. i can't believe i found it. i havent even looked back at the things i have written here because usually i get an overwhelming sense of urgency to delete them. so i try to just refrain from going back too far ( Read more... )

i like girls with personality
i like boys that are skinny

sometimes i just really wish you were here still. so i could come over when i'm sad like this and you and i would just pretend like everything in the world was okay. and you know me better than anyone else and so i didnt have to talk all the time. you just knew what would make me happiest. so we could just cuddle and feel comfort for a couple of ( Read more... )

My fall resolution is to live life by this quote:

"I am human, nothing that is human is alien to me."- Terence

When I was little. I mean, like 2nd and 3rd grade. A girl ruined my life. I don't know why, I can't hardly remember. But I remember I blamed her for a lot of things and I developed anxiety like there was not going to be a tomorrow. I would fake sick and make myself throw up so I wouldn't have to go to school and my mom thought it was all because of ( Read more... )

During the first few years out of high school, you compose a newer, and improved version of yourself. I've been working on myself for a little over a year now. This newly released, uncut version of myself, is wholly and altogether fucked up ( Read more... )

Alex and I moved out September 7th. He was mad at me the first day. Because I had my friends there and that made him feel like no one was gettting things moved it. We moved on to flume street and began our life together with my parents hating me for my decision and my brothers tears echoing in the back of my head. At first I loved it... he loved me ( Read more... )

So I had always thought that I would have this. I would have this journal to turn to. And I did. I never held back when I wrote here. I always just told the truth ( Read more... )

the dr told me im going to die today

i have mono

i have a huge 2nd degree burn on my arm thats in a cast

my house flooded

i think i'm pregnant