life is fucking bullshit. i dont give a fuck who tries to say things will get better. nothing will ever get better. you can have a good job with good benefits that pays you well. you can have a new car. you can have a new apartment with a boyfriend who swears his undying love for you for the rest of his life... you can have a new sweet awesome ( Read more... )

I got that apartment in woburn that i went to look at. me and Jonathan are moving in on  Feb 15th. that is, if he doesnt go to jail ( Read more... )

yookie died this morning.

and i feel sick enough to die.

i havent been out of my bed for almost two days. i still feel like shit.

i just slept for 11 hours and all i dreamt about was awful awful shit. that makes me feel like dying too.

everything is so wonderful.

i wish i was dead.

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ive been having the craziest dreams lately. i want to say their getting to me in a way but i think that they all contain some great knowledge...which all dreams do in a way....but they just keep getting more and more vivid and important. and they stay with me all day. i wake up with a message in my head ( Read more... )

i start my new job in ten minutes. 
this will be interesting.

say goodbye to being a bum. 
hello to growing up.

i cant wait to be making some real money so i can move out of this house.

and maybe buy a new car eventually.

ill have health benefits. 
and stuff like paid vacations and holidays.

hello.

i had the shittest dreams last night

i 
cant 
help 
this l o n g i n g

c o m f   o     r        t                       me

i 
cant 
hold it a l    l       i     n
if 
you wont 
let 
me

Unable so lost
I can't find my way
Been searching, but I have never seen
A turning, a turning from deceit

Cos the child roses like
Try to reveal what I could feel

I can't understand myself anymore
But I m still feeling lonely
Feeling so unholy

Cos the child roses like
Try to reveal what I could feel
But this loneliness
It just won't leave me alone

I'm fooling ( Read more... )