From Gregory Maguire's book Wicked (The Life & Times of the Wicked Witch of the West)"Elphaba the girl does not know how to see her father as a broken man. All she knows is that he passes his brokenness on to her. Daily his habits of loathing and self-loathing cripple her. Daily she loves him back because she knows no other way ( Read more... )

I will be visiting my parents and have no access to the internet or livejournal for the next week, but I wanted to wish everyone a lovely vacation from work/school/normally scheduled life and happy celebration of the holidays.

Much love to you all. Hope to see most of you at the Inferno on New Year's Eve, or around town, or in dreams...

*HUGS!*

The citizens whose lives are split between business & private life, their private life between ostentation & intimacy, their intimacy between the sullen community of marriage & the bitter solace of being entirely alone, at odds with themselves & with everyone, are virtually already Nazis, who are at once enthusiastic & fed up, or the city dwellers ( Read more... )

pressed up against the glass ( Read more... )

a few people have done this so far and it's kind of interesting... i took the first 'phrase' of each month's first diary entry because some were poems and a single line would have made no sense at all ( Read more... )

This changes constantly 'cause it totally depends on what cds i popped in most recently... and it's all about lyrics... so i'm going to quote seven lines for you from my seven favorite songs instead ( Read more... )

imagine that ( Read more... )

borrowed pockets of time ( Read more... )

that's it. i honestly do not fucking care anymore. this is my entire life, i hate myself, i hate everything about my existence, and i hope to god that i die in my sleep so i don't have to spend another second in my own presence.

i am a failure at everything and i refuse to try anymore. i have no reason to continue living.

I am making a writing-experiment right now, a re-examination of my memories which are after all the basis on which a human being creates a narrative of her own life ( Read more... )