Well today kinda sucked. I've been just sitting around bored having a bad day. Let's see, I woke up, took a shower, sat around and watched tv for a few hours, ate mac n cheese for lunch, got online for a few hours, went to sleep for a few more hours, and now i'm back online. Sigh, i just hope going to the movies works out tonight...though it ( Read more... )

Just wanted to say thanks to everyone for reading and commenting in my journal, it means a lot to me. I've been feeling a lot better about everything, though i will admit it still hurts a lot. Well, cant type much, Jonathan is bugging me to get on; i'll see ya all later

I wish i could tell you how i feel, how i care. I cant even begin to come up with the words to describe about why i say what i say or do the things i do becuase it all comes out in bits and pieces. Some of them hurt you and in turn cut my heart in two. Some of it cheers you up, and that makes the world seem like a heaven again. All i can say is ( Read more... )

For all of you that still read the infernal thing I cant thank you enough for caring, especially when you reply, even if it is only Kenny and Mal. Your such great friends! So ya, once again i'm depressed, and rambling on about nothing new really. I did miss small group tonight becuase i was so depressed...ya. Heh, pretty funny; I was sent down ( Read more... )

There's a song inside of my soul ( Read more... )

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Its strange...I feel as if i've lost all emotion. Just...nothing. Mal i'm proud of the decission you made; if i were in the same situation I would have choosen the same. All i can say about the heartbreak is only you two, Kenneth and Mallory, could possible understand how i felt, and here is the reason why. My whole life i've had problems with ( Read more... )

Desperate for changing ( Read more... )

I couldn't decide between crushed or depressed. I really dont know what to say right now but that this...pain or whatever you want to call it...just wont go away. I wish there was some easy way around it but somehow i just know that i just have to live through it. I dont know really what it is, whether you would call it heart broken or just ( Read more... )

Well for all of ya 3 that read this, i'm feeling a lot better now. I'm here for all of you that need me no matter what the situation. I figured out what was hurting so much, and if you care to know your going to have to ask me personally. None of you be afraid to talk to me, becuase im here to listen to you and hopefully help you. I pray for ya ( Read more... )