guys, i am doing so much better. i think it'll last this way, too. i think i'm really done with this "twisted and disappointing" chapter of my life. and just in time, too.

my heart hurts. it has been years since i've been heartbroken like this. i didn't think it was possible for me again, and i'm utterly embarrassed about the ridiculous circumstances. i'm listless. everyone around me sees me at my worst. i've been juggling conflicting feelings for weeks now and i'm just at the end of it - my rope, my sanity, my ( Read more... )

october second. sitting in commie house. i have already given up on fasting for ramadan. i think it fucked me up because i couldn't metabolize my medication properly. sorry to all those i've been strange/strained/abrupt with in the last few days. i really don't think i could help it. add that to all the other things in my tired and sore life and ( Read more... )

it is ramadan now and i am fasting. i am purging more than a few things from my life. i can't help but feel that some of my attempts will be futile. after all, when ramadan is over i will still be in this goddamn town.

alright, sweetheart, let's make our lives much simpler ( Read more... )

just when i want to die
nick makes everything better.

i have an apartment! i have a housemate! i have rent and bills to pay! school starts soon and i feel not at all like this is my senior year. not at all like i'm about to be an adult.

in other news,
i am just now learning to walk and talk. next week i'll start reading and riding a bike. after that, i may learn to dress myself. maybe.

i am looking forward to tomorrow, when erin and i have "cryday friday." we will eat nothing that is not a potato chip, chocolate, or somehow incorporating both.

i hate everyone and i hate that "i hate everyone" has become my motto.

!!!
uncool!
!!!

bye, manda.

i am sad.