For the first time in about 4 years I would say that I am pretty happy. I love the people I spend time with and am close to. I love how my families are somewhat functional again. It just fucking rocks. I guess it all kinda started when amy was here. Just being around her makes me 100 times happier. And when she visited I felt alive for the most ( Read more... )

Well last night wasnt anything i expected it to be and kind o made me depressed, but I stil had tons and tons of fun! Me and Ben went to his favorite restaurant in SF and even though his (hottest woman alive.. so he says) waitress wasnt there, all the other people working deffinately knew him and we got special treatment. hah.. it was funny. Anyway ( Read more... )

I am so freakin nervous! Its like the feeling I usually get right before I play a basketball game or take a huge test or something. I just got off the phone with freddy and before I could answer his questions about ben, and whether i liked him, something happened with the connection. But yeah.. Im kind of scared to admit how much I like him. And I ( Read more... )

wow... last night was intense. I dont really remember much of it but the parts that i do are really freakin weird. i spent like the whole time with stacis ex boyfriend trying to tell him that shes just at a time in her life where shes thinking "am i just settling?" and he just could not understand. i think i remember him crying on my knee or ( Read more... )

i WILL singlehandedly take DOWN kaiser!

Well... I deffinately havent written in this thing in a pretty damn long while! I dont dislike it or anything.. I just kind of forgot about it and well.. if you know me, you know. But anyway.. Life is ok at the moment. Amy was just here for like 2 weeks so that was awesome! And Kristen was at Berkeley so it was always a party! (JK I HATE THAT WORD ( Read more... )

soo.. havent updated in awhile. i should be packing right now, but its too hard. everythings too hard. i tried driving.. that didnt work so well. nothing felt the same. nothing felt as good as it was. ahh... i just need to get out of here. my mom and brother are comming in like a couple hours, dont really know when. i also dont know when were ( Read more... )

i hate fucking girls. especially ones that fucking lie and start shit that isnt remotely true. what the fuck. and being confronted by like three people who i had no problem at all with.. yeah, not what i would call fun. whatever... fucking bullshit. i hate this place. thank the fucking lord that i am getting out of here in 12 days ( Read more... )

Ok, so I was really fucked up when I wrote the last post. But I am still fucking pissed. Well actually just more kind of taken back and confused by the whole thing. Most of the people who probably read this dont really know what happened, but eh.. i dont really want to go into it. Basically I didnt really want to think that I had anything with this ( Read more... )

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