"So, are you two going anywhere for Easter?"

Me: I might be. I'm not sure though.

Him: I'm not.

Really? Are any of us bloody well surprised? Anyone? No? That's because you NEVER FREAKIN' COME HOME WITH ME.

"I'm having my last university class the weekend before so I want to go out!"

Him: Yeah. Well I'll be here so let us know and we'll see.

Do you ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder if it's all worth it. If all the sadness and anger and frustration will one day lead to a more accepting and brighter future ( Read more... )

It's hard to look at a problem you have an emotional response to and find a logical and precise solution right away. You can argue that it's possible all you want, if you have YEARS of training and have programed your brain to think that way, but for the most part the average person doesn't work that way ( Read more... )

I wish I knew why this effected me so much. Why I see it and get angry. Why I know he's downloading it and it makes me cry. Why why why ( Read more... )

It's amazing how relieved you can feel after you've talked out your problems. He mentioned that he had a job interview on Tues for the camp. I asked, "so, if he offers you the job will you take it ( Read more... )

I had a dream last night. In the dream I was sitting in the living room of my parents house. He was getting ready to go to a costume party at one of his friends house. I asked him why I couldn't go and he said because I would find it boring. I asked him again later and he said because I wouldn't know anyone there. I asked him again before the dream ( Read more... )

I think that some of my anxiety comes from the idea that everyone around me is dong something they find fun and exciting and I am not. It was suggested that is was a jealousy thing. I don't think it's as simple as that ( Read more... )

I don't give a flying fuck if something is considered socially acceptable, the norm or just something everyone does, if I'm not fucking happy about something, I'm not FUCKING HAPPY ABOUT SOMETHING.

DO NOT sit there and tell me that I'm just being silly.

DO NOT tell me that I'll just have to learn to deal with it.

AND DO NOT expect me to be OK with ( Read more... )

 
It's not that I don't like what your doing. It's that I don't like what your doing and I have no way to make you understand why.

And the fact that if I asked you why you had to do it you wouldn't answer me.

So I guess I'll just have to get used to this miserable feeling I get when I realize you've gone down that road again. 

Oh no. Pray do go on. I love hearing you tell me stories about how fun my boyfriend was when he was dating his ex girlfriend. No really, I am quite enjoying listening to what an awesome New Years you had and how great it would have been if he was there, like he used to be with his ex girlfriend. Yes, tell me more stories about all the exciting ( Read more... )