been awhile.

still a shitty human being.
stillllll fucking up and over.

peirced myself a few times.
took them out.
i can't remember half my life anymore.

my ex sent me a lovely email about how i'm a fucking loser.
i dont doubt it.

fought my father and lost.
bruised, bloodied.

moms kicking me out. guess i'll be wandering.

lates.

well, fuck.

my ex emailed me this afternoon telling me how i fucked up our relationship.
not gonna lie he sounded a tad insecure.
telling me about this new girl. amber. how great she is.
how he never lie to her like he had to for me.
etc.

almost cried and then i realized it's such a waste of life.
he can go about thinking i fucked it up.
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my laptop is fucked now.
i didnt drop it or anything and now its like FZZTR.
code for Fuck You, no doubt.

its only the first week and i'm stressed.
i couldnt eat today i was so fucked up. though i'd just puke it back up.

i had like 3 break-downs when i came home.
ok i cried once during class.
fuck, whaaaat iiisss goinggg onnnn.
tomorrow i'm skipping my 1st ( Read more... )

mare loves clay (5:08:35 PM): don't kill it

mare loves clay (5:08:41 PM): it deserves to live too!

lmao <3.

school's alright.
people suck, whatever. they're easy to avoid.
ummmmmmm i'm so stressed. 8D

cheers.

got hired.
photographing a local band.
Desillusion.

you dont know dick about fucking heartbreak.
i hate you. 

joined this Spoken Word writing thing.
weird.

there are tons of teens there who are just
stupid.
and annoying all up my asshole.
a few amazing writers.

its for 2 weeks.
10-4.
:|

free coffee/food, though so...

i simply DREAD the social interaction.
you dont even know.
i went out of my way to just be alone.
or let them know they dont need to be embarrassed for me ( Read more... )

christ.
had a dream about vosika the other night.
that bastard.
BASTARD with a sweet ass.

:|

katy's back.
'just in time' apparently.
cos i ammm lame 8D

we got to meet knives in the attic last tuesday.
this kid who's like IN LOVE with me showed up.
i was like ah fuck.
he made like 305834 moves to kiss me..and i accepted one.
i was like BAHHHH.
got a little angry ( Read more... )

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shaving my head.

ugly cures.

got off my ass
got my permit.
the road sucks.

i havent talked to anyone in weeks.
i'm keeping it that way.
i hope my habits fucking kill me.

yesterday i beat the shit outta myself
cause no one else would.
i have a bit of a black eye.

i'm gonna make my stepmom teach me
how to street fight.
i wanna get fucked up.