i think jack and i are done.

and she carved a portrait of myself
right into her very own skin

for the past 3 days i've been teaching myself "Valo Yossa".
[finnish song]
i want to sing it to my kid(s?) someday.

the sorrow never ends. 80!
i began emptying out my room this weekend.
most of its all out in my living room...pushed out of the way.

i found a letter from my ex-girlfriend.
i thought i threw them all out...
unfortunately this was one of the ( Read more... )

listening to december underground.
i swore i wouldnt.
afi = green day = sold out = not ok with ME.

some of these songs are pretty good.
not good enough for me to pay to see em 8D
well..davey is hot enough that i'd kill for a ticket anywho.

i had an upsetting dream last night.
dont remember what it was.
shit, i knew i should have written it down.

today moms ( Read more... )

was supposed to go to concrete.
but:
of course some dramas goin down there.
my dads paid for a room in a hotel for like...whatever who cares how long.
he called while i was packing and he said
[stupid things, whatever]
he could come pick me up still but 
he didnt really want to pay for a hotel room for us to share so he wouldnt know where we'd go.
nice, ( Read more... )

my mother saw davey havok and didnt take me.
she was like
front fucking row, you know?
upset = ME.

CUTCUTCUTCUTCUTCUTCUT YOUUU UP

TODAY my cat and i areee going to cuddle.
he's already covered my black blazer with white hair.

i love his weight of life in my lap.

yeah, you cry like a baby.

alright so i need to put this somewhere.
considering i really doubt anyone reads these
here i go.

summer school is pathetic.
i'm the only one doing work, and the 'teacher' seems to find a way or two to think i'm not doing dick.
i work from 7:30 am-whenever i get done [before noon].
today i worked through breaks, didnt talk to ( Read more... )

i wrote a song:

[chorus:]
I am a member of a Suicide Squad
I’m a betrayer, a prayer of God
My faith is bloodless, so vast, so insane
We keep on dying, again and again

Lord bless my lips, as impure as they be
I will forgive you, so do unto me
In beds of corpses, your flowers do grow
I do not question, as you seem to know

[chorus]

This bed aflame
Torn from this ( Read more... )

DISTANCE
IS GAY.

[ I AM
MAN. ]

(oh man, i can't believe that you did what they said)

you did and to this day i've still gotta say

that in my mind i question it
[Celldweller]

at 11:45 pm last night i got a very
special
call:

Jack: Sarah?
Sarah: Jacky?
Jack: Hey babydoll...
S: yes, yes, hello.
J: i got the results...
S: ...........AND?
J: i'm clean.

oh, this is headline news.
okok.
so now what do i do?
i dance.
listen to HIM all morning.
listen to our song and sing like never before.
we're both so relieved.
not that there was really ( Read more... )