I am taking advantage of the fact that I am alone in the office at this indecently early hour to use the Internet. Which is not allowed. I don't care. My job sucks and this is one small consolation. Never  mind that a lot of sites are blocked off...they didn't get this one!!! I would just like to say that MY JOB SUCKS BIG TIME. In fact, this whole ( Read more... )

I almost thought I'd actually completely abandon this blog. But some things you just have to write down here and nowhere else will do ( Read more... )

things have gone from calm to confusing to weird to uncomfortable to delirious to uplifting to embarassing to depressing to suicidal to just simply indescribable in a span of one freaking week. i want to blog, rant, rave, exorcise and share, but for once i find myself at a complete and utter loss for words to describe the roller coaster i've been ( Read more... )

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I no longer hold others responsible for my happiness. Neither do I hold myself responsible for theirs. I can only do my best and go along my way. If in the process, I help them in their search for happiness, then good. If I don't, well then that can't be helped. I dictate my path and I write my own destiny. No one can hurt my feelings or make me ( Read more... )

When I was a kid, my brother and I went through a kite-making phase. Every weekend, we'd make monstrous contraptions out of paper, barbecue sticks, glue and whatever was around. My brother was a conceptual genius even then, and he could design all sorts of things that I couldn't. I stuck to the original diamond-shaped kite with a bit of string ( Read more... )

I totally don't know if I'm actually Gestalting things into order or I've reached new heights in denial. If you ask me if I still like him, I will say yes I do. A lot in fact. But even though things have sort of been okay between us after that pre-Lasaret fight, things have not been the same for me. I was shocked by how quickly and irrationally he ( Read more... )

"Why is it so hard to find a good guy these days?" a question posed to me by a friend some time ago. Well okay, maybe not exactly in those words but close enough. At the time, I wholeheartedly concurred and forgot all about these words, a lot of us take this statement as a fact of life anyway. I'd already offered several theories as to why it's so ( Read more... )

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Turn a cartwheel
2. Tell a certain *someone* how I really feel about him
3. Get a 4.0 in a Chem lecture subject

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
1. Read until my eyes give out
2. Waste time online
3. Mindless text conversations (I'm better at them than real live conversations)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY ( Read more... )

I am so not cheerful right now. Time to let up some pent-up Christmas anger. Pent-up? Hah! Who am I kidding? I've let out enough piss here to guarantee the world's population of females of reproductive age PMS for the next five years or so. But okay, it's no one's fault but mine. So to cheer myself up a bit, I'm making a list of all the things I ( Read more... )