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23
On Friday I turn 23. Usually, I love my birthday & look forward to it with great anticipation. But this year, I would really like it to past me by. There are several reasons for this. One: the plans I had going fell through & I can't even make a big deal out of it bc the person the plans were with is going through something unimaginable & it's ( Read more... ) -
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So that guy I had the mixed signals with? Just found out he broke up with his gf. It bothers me how much I care. Because he has made his decision several times & I'm never it. A part of me feels like he's scared bc I'm black & he's white. But even though I'm going to stress about this, I don't want to develop any romantic feelings, bc he is going ( Read more... ) -
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It was all a lie... It hurts too much to describe, but it feels as if my soul was laid bare & then scrapped with a dull blade. For 9 months I held hope & dreamed and wondered, but now I know it was all a lie. Tomorrow will be the last of it. I'll go to my staff meeting, meet no one & that'll be it. I think I'm ugly. Men are not attracted to me. I ( Read more... ) -
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Loneliness has been eating at my soul. I held hope for 9 months. I'm done.
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Sometimes, I am just so sad. I hate being lonely. I hate that I had an incredible weekend, but bc I didn't meet a guy, I feel so let down.... Story of my life...
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It's my birthday... Finally 22, today starts the countdown, from now one every day I don't meet someone is one day my reading was crap. I really hope that is not the case. I'm hoping I meet a wonderful guy soon. Fingers crossed.
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Tomorrow is my first day of work.. I'm definitely nervous, not just because of the information & starting a new job with new people & a new environment.. I cut my hair on Saturday. Another big chop, so I've got a boy cut & it's hard bc it's not what I'm used to, but I will be ok. I just need to remember that no one knows me, so if I act normal, it ( Read more... ) -
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I honestly think I'm going to obsess myself out of a relationship..
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I hope I meet someone soon..
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Sometimes, I feel like I will never know what it's like to be in like, lust & love.