Sucky in that I just feel off. I hate not knowing what tomorrow will bring. I want to get on with my life!!!!!

On the bright side... It was a beautiful day outside. I got alot done at work. My kids are in a good mood, always a good thing.

I asked Kevin to leave today.

My boyfriend has this female friend. Now I don't care if he has friends that are women. I am just not really the jealous type. I have friends that are men. And I ALWAYS include K. Anyway...this woman. About 3 months after K and I were together she invites him to goto a concert. Doesn't invite me. Just him and her. I thought that was weird, but ( Read more... )

it's all men. there all like this. if I ever hear the words I don't know again, it will be too soon.

I can't be the only one to open up. I will not let you in unless you let me completely in also. You keep parts of yourself closed off. It can't be that way. All trust, or no trust. Do you understand what I mean by this?

I applied for a new job today. Wish me luck.

I miss you. I miss my friend. I miss the friend that knows things about me that no one else in the world knows. wish.....wish.......wish

Why do I want to see you?

I am no longer angry. It's gone. I didn't think it would ever go away. I am glad it has. Now I am mourning. I am not mourning the anger, I am mouring the lose of a friend, someone I love. I have an empty space in my heart.

My oldest thinks she is ugly. She thinks she has nothing special. How do I teach her otherwise? She is 14. She is needing exceptance from others before she can except herself. I hate this. I don't want her to be like me. It's my worst fear.

Please, oh please get out of my head!!!!!!!! Yes, I'm talking to you.