So first day of dialysis in Quincy went well. Everyone was really nice, the place is super clean and new looking. They even have cable. Tomorrow the PT comes. Boo. I seriously have no interest in doing physical therapy. No interest in dealing with someone showing up at my door and making me stretch, or ride a stationary bike. But I promised my ( Read more... )

So hopefully I'll be going home tomorrow or Tuesday. Then I start dialysis in Quincy on Wednesday. I'm nervous. Of course this is provided everything is ready. My doctor is trying to get me this special stuff that they can put in through the dialysis machine that will give me extra nutrition. Which would be AWESOME, because this bi-passes the ( Read more... )

So, I've put off updating, because apparently I sound stressed out, thus stress everyone else out. Honestly, I just don't have the energy for everyone elses stress, so I thought I'd just leave posting for when I had something good to say. But honestly, it just left me off of posting. Sorry, there ARE positive things, but they are sandwiched between ( Read more... )

Sometimes the stress from being sick isn't even the being sick part. It's the people around you. I am a person who uses avoidance as a coping tool. If something is going to stress me out, I just don't think about it. If I DO, I end up obsessing. Non-stop. So for me, it's better to just push it aside, and deal with it face to face when it's time ( Read more... )

Breathing sucks right now. I figure I'm going in next week. I'm using my inhalers a lot, and my throat is all itchy. Coughing up junk. Not a lot of energy. I'm going to make it through the weekend though. I can tell I'm not the only one worried about going in. My mom keeps on suggesting things to delay going in. I am up and around more at home. I ( Read more... )

So so tired. Not from anything other than making my way upstairs and taking a shower. This isn't a CF thing, or a diabetes thing... it's an energy thing. I've officially lost all my stamina. I want to take a nap after getting up to get a drink. Going into the hospital isn't going to help this. Actually, it might make it worse. So I'm going to have ( Read more... )

So I will. I feel so uncomfortable in my body right now. I really tried to eat today, the result was being 400 calories short of my goal and feeling extremely bloated and uncomfortable. I still have pills for the day left to take, and the idea of trying to put anything more in my stomach is disgusting. I get sick to my stomach every time a food ( Read more... )

I'm having "a day." I feel crabby, bored and unusually anxious. I cried about not going out. I cried about crying about not going out. I sat in my parents room and watched tv with them while my husband went out. And my mother lectured me on how it was actually MY fault, because I could have gone out if I just changed my attitude and said I could ( Read more... )

Rough night. Sick to my stomach, acid reflux... then puking at 4am. I don't think I can eat pizza anymore. I love it so much, but I was sick all day yesterday after eating it. No amount of prilosec could get rid of the pain... though after puking, a glass of cold milk and some gingersnaps seemed to help. Even after saying that... I want to eat ( Read more... )

Uhg. I feel like crap. Tired and lethargic. My arm is oozing a clear liquid that does not seem to concern the nurses, but is freaking me out. I'm supposed to go home tomorrow... and I'm lacking the usual excitement. I just feel meh. I don't feel good. I don't feel bad. I just feel meh. So tired. I just want to lay down and sleep forever ( Read more... )