Hi.

I have come back to re-read all of my posts form the past. What a weird feeling that is. I am almost fully recovered, yet I still have those days where I can't see why I'm not in control anymore. I've found many other things to appreciate, probably.

I will be deleting all of my past posts, and make new ones.  I have no clue what I'll be talking ( Read more... )

 Almost a year later, she's back. 
I wonder if I'll be stuck with this disease for 20 more years.

I can't eat. Drugs don't help.
I feel good about it though, strangely, I do!
WHY?

 I lost my best friend. My home. 
I might as well lose this ton of fat.

 I'm left alone in a strange city without my boyfriend 'till September ( Read more... )

I hate you, life.
My guy rather hang out with his friends on Valentine's.
Good excuse to binge and purge on his chocolates.
I HATE THIS.
FUCK
I feel so lost.


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I've gained 5 pounds back. But that's because I've stopped purging AND exercising because of depression.
I just lie around and eat and eat.
But the last few days have been good.
I've been fasting for 10 hours. not much, but it's something to be excited about I guess.
I hope everyone is doing okay.
I can actually smile today :)

Much love <3


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I've lost weight.

Down to 133. Was 146 2 weeks ago.
But I'm not even happy about it.
It's been hell.
Depression sucks.

<3

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So everything will be okay.

WILL IT REALLY MOTHER??!!
Cause apparently no one can see the futur.


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Total loss.
Forget living.


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Succeeded my food log, but I can't continue.
My bf is watching me.
All I can do now is just be aware of whats going in my mouth and maybe then I'll be able to resist it.
Today will be good.
It's a day for taking care of myself.

Laundry is calling.
Stay strong

:)


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