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Have no time to update.
It's just.. the feeling of dying all the time. And I'm not the kind to bring everyone down.
Sure wish I didnt feel so fucking alone on this planet
This stupid (thin zomby people walking everywhere to kill you're self esteem) PLANET
Where are the friggen birds and the bees, for the love of LIFE
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I will be fasting until I can't. This time I really gotta remember I'm fasting, cause latetly I've been starting to fast then forget I am a couple hours later.
REMEBER SOPHIE
You're fasting. End of it.
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Today was 800 day !
And I had about 200
And I passed out !!!!!!
:(
I need to eat. I feel my insides crumble as I write this. And I dont even care anymore to actualy do it.
But there is hope, I gotta get better. I will. Because..
I want kids and a life someday.
A futur.
Question:
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Mah, busy day.
Will update tomorrow.
Hope everyone is okay.
Wish I could say I was..
''/
EDIT:
240 cals today; can't take in any more. I can have 500 and I just, can't. I'm huge.
Although, on the bright side.. the scale just now said :
135 lbs
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
And I might be lighter tomorrow. :D
I was 140 last .. uhm.. thursday i think?
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I wish my mom would work on weekends. It's cruel to wish such a thing, but I can't plan anything ahead, she's always there to control what WE'LL be doing. As in not asking me first. I am 18, mom, get a point.
ON AN OTHER NOTE,
Succes for yesterday :)
In: 540
Out: I have no clue. Worked out for 45 minutes when my parents were sleeping. Mostly abs ( Read more... ) -
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I'm trying to eat.
TRYING TO EAT.
Fruits, bit of cereal, 2 coffees, stew with my mother,
That had better make her happy.
Cause I'm huge right now.
140 according to the scale. was 134 last week.
I hate Christmas.
FML.
On another note. Getting smokes finaly today. Only had 2 yesterday, it was painfull to go through the day with withdrawal symptoms already. ( Read more... ) -
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Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
I've drank too much,
MAH, so tomorrow is the start of the new me
:D
I'm psyched. I've put up this date for a month now, waiting for tomorrow. AND HERE IT IS!
I have so many resolutions, it would take forever to write all of 'em.
no 1 RESOLUTION :
Be a better daughter.
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Worst Chrsitmas ever.
no christmas tree, no family, no gifts.
Forget life, no one cares anymore.
I want DEATH