last night sucked. more drama. what else is new?

well i'll tell ya. i went to summer school today.
i know a few people.. dustin is in my class. at least i know someone.
and its really hard sitting in the same desk for 5 hours straight with only two 15 minute breaks.
im exhausted right now. i didnt get much sleep last night and i had to wake up early.

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So tonight was ok.
i had lots of memories.. i can't say what. but they were good memories and kinda made me sad cuz i miss them.
i lost my cell phone. Someone stole it and turned it off. I tried to call it a bunch of times, but it was turned off.
I sorta stopped me and todd from getting in a fight by not yelling back. im just in a weird mood i guess.

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i havent typed in this thing in a while cuz i haven't had anything to complain about..
but now i do. 
so deal with it.

my summer is gonna suck so bad.
me, my dad and todd really got into it today.
im not allowed to see him again and my dad doesnt want me talking to him on the phone.. but i know i will.
his parents hate me again. they blocked my phone ( Read more... )

what the hell is wrong with me?
i should be happy for him.
i should be over him.
i shouldnt care.
but i do. he likes another girl and told her he wants to kiss her.
this hurts so bad.. i nearly cried at school today.
i feel like its my fault.
then another friend of mine feels bad..
and i feel like thats my fault too.
i hate feeling depressed all the time.
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i know i dont have "claim" on him.
i know i dont "own" him.
and i know i cant control him.
that doesn't mean i cant get upset about things though.
it still hurts.
he could kiss another girl, go out with another girl, do whatever he wants
and theres not damn thing i can do about it.
i know that. so stop telling me.
shut the fuck up and get over it.

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yesterday was a great day.. but last night was horrible.
me and todd had been planning to go to the movies ALL WEEK.
we didn't know what movie, but we were gonna get there at 7 and eat first, then go see the movie IF he didn't run into someone he knew and wanna walk around til 10:30 instead. and im tired of doing that.
well i call him at 6:30.. and ( Read more... )

eh, today was kinda good.. and kinda bad.
a little of both.
1st block- i dont really remember what happened.
2nd block- took a quiz and watched a movie. after 2nd block jesse told me something that i REALLY did not want to hear. =\
3rd block- had a pop quiz.. nobody knew what to do. so we all failed. and she gave all of us sentences to write.. a full ( Read more... )

i want too many things
but i know i cant have ANY of it.

i really like the feeling of everyone being so nice to me..
but i miss the feeling of knowing someone loves me.

i hate drama. i like being happy.
but when i get home, reality hits me.
&& everything sucks right now.
but theres not a thing i can do about.

whatever happens, happens i guess.

today was a really good day.
1st block- got 25 bonus pts. WOO.
2nd block- got really sleepy.
3rd block- got my project back and made a 94 on it. yay.
lunch- no stalking today. =[
4th block- boring.

on the bus carlos sat by me and we talked. he started asking me some kinda personal questions and then he said "well what would happen if we went out?"
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So i got told today that i have a chance of being anemic because i just randomly get dizzy all the time. I could be sitting there doing absolutely nothing and i'll get dizzy.
So i told my dad and hes taking me to the doctor on thursday.
I'm kinda scared.. but maybe its normal.

So today was boring. I went to the tanning bed.. im starting to turn a ( Read more... )