A close friend of mine has accidentally triggered my eating issues, which were beginning to resurface piece by piece already. But after seeing her, having lost a SERIOUS amount of weight since I last saw her (which was only a month and a half ago) I couldn't help myself. It's really kickstarted my anxieties and obsessiveness which I've been ( Read more... )

I'm really starting to fall to pieces. Everything is going wrong lately, and the more I try to turn it around the wrose it seems to get. Besides all this home trouble, my dissertation is due soon and it's nowhere near finished. Not to mention the assignments and exams coming up. FUCK. The more I panic, the less I can do. I've been sat here staring ( Read more... )

Things with the bf are not good. Not good at all. He's really irritable and always seems to be mad at me but I don't know why. I've moved into the living room and am sleeping on the sofa to stay out of his way ( Read more... )

I want to be one of the beautiful ones...

Ok, so have just realised this whole big meal drama isn't over yet. I'm not much of a party animal, I've got bored of it already which is shocking, plus I do stupid things when I get drunk haha. So my boyfriend and I are going out for a "nice meal" on New Years Eve (ah), plus I can study after rather than be out all night. Therefore, whatever I ( Read more... )

Yesterday was intense. I managed to make it through dinner ok, even avoided dessert... But then I got home and binged :( for the first time in 8 days. I feel awful. I'm getting everything in order today I've been slack for way too long. I'm organising my room, studying and working out for atleast 3 hours. I didn't weigh yesterday, I've set my goals ( Read more... )

Newton Faulkner - I Need Something... Absolutely love it. <3

(p.s. a whole week without bingeing! YAY!)

Weighed this morning and I've lost my first pound :) haha how lame do I sound! Oh well, I'm happy. It's set the ball rolling now, I just have to keep it going. No breaking down, no giving up. Just keep focused and keep moving forwards. Easy. Or so it sounds... Anyways, saw the fam this evening for the first in quite some time. Was actually really ( Read more... )

Today has bee surprisingly good; I have only eaten once, and very little at that, and it is now late enough for me to get into bed and hopefully fall asleep soonish to avoid eating again. I feel pretty rough but it will be worth it tomorrow when I wake up feeling strong and accomplished. I'm loving playing with my new blackberry, though it's pretty ( Read more... )

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