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[x_countryguy]

Well here I am. I feel like I have nothing better to do with myself than to post something self serving on my LJ. I think I've more or less failed out of school. That means at the end of the summer I'm out of a job. Time to look for something that pays minimum wage that I can do full time. The stress of everything that I let get to me means that I

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[okuza1]

No. This sucks, I know. I told myself very similar stuff in the past, and I was wrong. Wallowing in self-pity is self-defeating, and I say this from experience. Just because things suck now though doesn't mean things you have done in the past don't have value. I've seen you at your best, and at that point you are intelligent, charismatic, and someone who people will follow. Whatever decisions you have made, good, bad, or anywhere in between, are made and there is nothing to be done about them. Look to the past for what has value, and look to the future for for the same. If you've made mistakes, learn from them. Don't let your failures define you, let your successes do that. You don't have to go through this stuff alone. Friends need to be friends through the good and the bad. If they aren't willing to go through the bad, then they aren't friends. In the end, the only one who can get you out of this rut is yourself, but you don't need to be alone in doing it. Withdrawing yourself from everyone else doesn't work. It didn't work when I

[goalby66]

I had a really disasterous end to my college schooling as well. I ended up failing my final student teaching assignment, but I was still allowed to graduate. I have a degree, but no teaching certification. That makes finding jobs practically impossible. I've been working with Stewart's for the past two years with not a whole lot to show for it. I've slowly moved up the corporate ladder. It's not easy, but it's possible to succeed even when you think it's impossible. Don't give up hope.

As for Oswego, it's basically a college town. There is nothing there at all. The only way you can really find any sort of work is to go to Syracuse.

[shaelbopp]

Did you finish your Bachelor's?

[x_countryguy]

No, I have to pass Smiley's second music history class. Attending her lectures literally makes me have anxiety attacks.

[riki_kiki_taco]

Don't worry, you aren't the only one by far. I wonder if you could take a similar class at one of the community colleges and get the credit to graduate? Hmmm or if it's offered during a summer/winter semester taught by someone else.... which sadly I doubt, knowing her. If only she was going on sabbatical! Have you talked to your adviser to see if there's anything you could substitute? Explain the problem, I think most people understand how difficult her courses can be. I mean geez, my aunt and uncle knew about her...as computer science majors... in the 70s! Anyway, no harm in asking. And if your adviser is no help, talk to Todd, he might be able to pull some strings. (he's still head of the department, right?)

~kiki

[x_countryguy]

Already talked to Todd and Julie (who is Dean of Music and etc. right now) and they said pass MUS 311 or die. That might be embellished.

[talvalithan]

Whoah there, you're being WAY too hard on yourself. I always thought highly of you, you have personality. You're good in front of groups. And from what I've heard, STG has done well since you became president, so I don't know what you're talking about. I doubt anyone realy thought "omg I was sooo counting on Alex staying with Rachel I am so disappointed" that would be pretty ridiculous. I have this theory, based on what I've read in past entries, that maybe you tried to do too much at once, had unrealistic expectations about what you could possibly accomplish all at once, and burned yourself out.

Been where you are

[chinacutiemom]

First semester in law school, I was only 20. Everybody told me I was too young to be there, and I believed them. I barely squeaked through. Second semester I embarked on a terribly turbulent romance, plus got very sick. I should have taken the semester off. Instead I almost flunked out. Me--the magna cum laude star of my undergraduate department. You are not the only one. I kept on going somehow and managed to finish but my GPA never recovered from that second horrible semester