Happiness is all in the head. And in the head is what you put in it. So why would you not fill your head with what you want. To create happiness for others. Well I am happy to know that I no longer making sacrafices of my happiness for others. From now on what makes me happy should just as much make those close to me happy. I am longing for a piece ( Read more... )

My sanity and self esteem is slowly returning. I finaly got rid of andrea. She is no longer in my life at all and I couldn't be happier. I have my friends and family and I'm starting to find who I am again. And I have already met someone else. Now I know everyone will tell me this is just a rebound. Which is why I'm gonna take it slow. If this ( Read more... )

i really enjoy the movie "secret window" it comforts me ( Read more... )

Ok. So my desicion has been made. We are no more. And won't ever be. And I feel free. I should respect myself for this. This wil be for the better

i swear if it doesnt work this time im fucking packing up and leaving town. i'll start over new somewhere else

tonight....
i am going to talk to andrea about "us" and see if we can fix our problems and work on a relationship from there or if we just need to never talk again. im not 100% sure where this is going to go....nor do i care.....i am the defination of hopeless and careless right now

i cant beleive i went back to her.....so many times and you think i would have given up. but i guess its just like me to never give up without a reason. and she gave me a damn good reason to give up. and this hurts.its hurts real bad. and im a little lost. i dont want to call and ask my friends to hang out because i know they will think that im ( Read more... )

over the past few days the phrase "i hate who i have become" keeps ringing in my head....

And it's very hard to tell if i'm actually thinking it

ummm.... basically this is an apology to anyone i have ignored or not been close to in the past 8days- 2 months.....i have been battling a bad drug addiction...and im sorry for those of youthat i have kept this from so well...now you know..and im getting some help....i just never realized there was a problem untill i couldnt wake up...im still ( Read more... )

....just to dance in that serenity we call rain with you one more time

would be blissful