HE IS HOME!!! My Marcus is home. I missed him so much. I was so worried when he didnt come home on time. He is alive and well. I am so thankful. I just talked to him for the first time since I said good bye. It was so wonderful to hear his voice. He sounds happy. I am so happy right now. I get to see him in a few hours. He is my best friend, I love ( Read more... )

Once again a few months have passed. But I will not let that happen again. Atleast for a while. I need some thing to relieve my irritation ( Read more... )

Its been a long while. Things have changed oh so much. The future is ahead. But so much I do not understand. Why do friends come and go? Why do bad things happen to good people? Why so many damn questions? And a whole bullshit run around. I hate when people run away. I hate when people dont confront a problem head fucking on ( Read more... )

I found out a while ago that David's father died. I found out today how he died. He fell down the stairs and broke his neck. I think that is one of the worst ways to die. He was blind too.

I just found out that my real father is on Oxygen and that does not sound very well. In the past he has had a few heart attacks and cancer. We havent spoken or seen each other in a few years and we just started Emailing each other. I hate that we have lost so much time together that we can not make up. He isnt the best person in the world but I ( Read more... )

Its been a while. But last night kicked ass. So I thought I would write a little. Documentation, thats what humans are good at. But anyways thank you Q for the invite. I had a good time. Cool people. It was awesome I saw jeff there. I hadnt seen him in a few weeks. I got to talk to Q's twin. He is cool. And pretty cute. Though he had a girl with ( Read more... )

Oh my friend. My old lover ( Read more... )

Re-opened wounds ( Read more... )

Im falling down my spiral. I hurt myself today ( Read more... )

My brain is shutting down. All i think of is you and cocaine. I cant have either. I am so tired but I can not sleep. My eyes are heavy. My tummy aches. My heart hangs low. I have no more tears left to shed. Confusion. Pain. Chaos. All has taken control. What day is it? How did I get here? Is there still an outside? I have no clue of anything. I ( Read more... )